Day 3

Again, a little late with this post, but better late than never. My 2 fans said they are happy to wait anyway.

Day 3, so my research said, would be the hardest day to get through. As it turns out, it was. The headaches started to set in, and the reality of my situation came to terms all at once. I am not eating food. for 10 days. by my own choice. No one really cares if I succeed or fail. No one really wants to hear me wine. I am solo on this mission. I have some supporters, don't get me wrong. Some close friends cheering me on. I have noticed an interesting trend of my gentleman friends being the most supportive, with my family in the middle, and my girl friends not supportive at all. They are waiting for me to fail so that I will do the fun things we used to do like get lunch, or get trashed. Or they just want me to fail because heaven for bid I lose some weight by doing something so simple (in strategy, not endurance).

I do need to recap this day, as a little explanation as to why I thought it was so hard. First off, it was my day off. I had all day to think about food, and how I can't eat it. Second, Throughout the whole day I only managed to make time for two real nutritious juices, so by 8pm I was about to shoot someone. Especially because (third) it was my mother's birthday and they were serving steak, baked potato, salad, and french bread with olive oil. Cake? of course there was cake. Red Velvet cake. I was like WTF? They ALWAYS get Dairy Queen Ice Cream Cake. Which I don't like anyway, but the birthday that I have sworn off food they get something good. Unbelievable. I could handle that though. I just sat there while they ate their five star meal and I drank my juice. Trying to keep the bitterness at bay. I would say I am pretty freaking good at that considering (forth) my sister/co-juicer was eating steak and salad right across from me. I guess I'm the winner in the end... I froze a steak and a slice of cake, so I will get mine in a week or two. The last part of my day consisted of going to a party. Where everyone was drinking and smoking, and I waaas not. Some party. I left after an hour, thinking to myself "why on earth did you think you would have a good time at a party where people were getting fucked up, the exact EXACT opposite of anything you were trying to do." Silly girl. Always learns the hard way.

I have learned to embrace any support I get, but to remember that I am doing this for me and me alone. I believe this is a healthy move. Something my body will thank me for. Because I'm not gonna lie; despite the fact that I pride myself on not eating fast food and being "healthy", I am far from it. I drink every night, I eat shitty food, and I smoke whatever is in front of me because that's the cool thing to do. Nope. If I have learned anything in my 3.5 days of fasting it's that I don't need any of those harmful substances to make myself happy. I need good people, with good habits and a whole lot of sunshine (hence moving out of Ohio ASAP).

I can feel some differences in my body. I wake up with energy, but lose it by the end of the day. My skin looks nice. My hair is shinier, curlier. My teeth feel kind of weird..like they're losing their enamel, but that can't be because I am an avid brusher (and occasional flosser). Mostly I feel a clearness in my mind. I can think straight, and I can remember things. I can feel a bad mood coming on and decide how to stay away from it. I would say this is mostly do to the decrease in alcohol/smoking habits, but food has an important part to play in that area.

A response I get a lot is, "that's not healthy, you're just going to gain a bunch of weight back when you stop fasting". And I know that if I go back to my old habits I will eventually gain all lost weight back, and feel like I suffered through 10 days of torture for nothing. That is not my intention at all. I want to learn from this experience. I want to have a new appreciation for raw, unprocessed foods. And I want to change my eating habits to that of consuming micro nutrients (fruits, veggies, nuts, seeds) versus crappy food that just contributes the obesity epidemic, while not providing most of the benefits we are actually suppose to get from eating food.

We shall see how this all goes from here on out. At this point I just can't wait to make it to the halfway point. I need a mile stone like that to keep me going.